Finding Contentment

I haven't been content for some time now.  This summer was full of being miserable in who I was, what I was doing, how stagnant my spiritual walk was, and how my future seemed so blank and vast before me.  I would pick myself up only to fall even farther into the pit of desperation.  I am slowly moving more and more each day out of this black hole of sin and rebelliousness towards my Savior, but as I said it is indeed a one day at a time achievement. I would be naive and ridiculous to think that I am going to be content and never seeking more than what I have again, but I take joy and have hope in the fact that I can choose to not be stupid anymore.  I can choose to let God's mercy and grace wash over me and bring me sweet and glorious contentment that I find no where else.  No matter what I choose to do with my future (because right now the possibilities are endless) as long as I am dying to myself and living as Christ then the rest will just be.  It will not be perfect as life never is, but it will be as God wills. If I am walking with Him that should be contentment embodied. In Numbers when God instructs Moses to tell Aaron and his sons to bless Israel he gave them this special blessing:

"May the Lord bless and protect you.  May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you.  May the Lord show you his favor and give you his peace."

These words God spoke to Israel are an example of how God takes care of his children.  He gave this blessing after giving the people laws to follow to show how they needed God to be truly holy and that their own efforts were worthless.  The law can never be kept (except by Jesus who actually fulfilled the law), but exposes how we truly do fail so much. To be holy we must seek after God and his ways.  God is saying if you follow me and do as I intend for you to do I will smile upon you, I will be gracious and show you favor and I will give you my peace.  All of those things I am seeking after and am completely okay with.