Oh the winds of change....

I have always had bangs. (Yes I know this is a weird thing to talk about in my first ever post on my blog but hey hang in there I do have a point).  For some reason I decided that this year I was going to grow my bangs out. I needed a change. I needed to make something different about my appearance.  I had this whole feeling of staleness and the need to be unique.  Well same goes for my life.  I am experiencing change on a grand and massive scale in my life this year.  As a senior I am graduating so with that comes the future and its endless list of possibilities that are overwhelming and frightening to even start to sort through.  The decision of should I go to seminary, graduate school, take a year off or just get a job is looming ahead of me.  Change from my safe and comforting nest of Willliams and my family here that gives support and unwavering encouragement to a whole new phase of my life.  

My walk with Christ is ever changing.  The patience and willingness to wait for Him to be my Sustainer and my only Constant.  To be able to trust that God is providing for me in all ways and I have to release my useless pride and fear to Him and let Him take complete control.  So much easier said than done as I have been learning these past three days.  The change in relationships in my life from the dependency on someone and now having to let that go and just lean on Jesus.  

Oh change is painful and can be annoying and is most certainly never easy.  It is usually uncomfortable and at some point in the process we want to give up and go back to the way it used to be.  But as with my bangs you have to commit to change and commit to seeing it through and trusting God to "be my rescue, for where else can I go?  My conclusion to handling all this change is found in the words of one of my favorite hymns.

"Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him.  How I've proved Him o'er and o'er.  Jesus, Jesus, Precious Jesus. Oh for Grace to trust Him more." Amen.